My submission has led to some serious self discovery as of late.  I didn’t realize what a control freak I had become until I started allowing myself to submit to Dom.  Originally when I first came back from San Fransisco I had wanted to get into the BDSM lifestyle for what I’m sure would be considered questionable reasons.  The “doing it for kicks” kinda thing.  I saw some amazing things while I was in San Fran in regards to BDSM (I was fortunate enough to be able to visit Kink’s Armory) and thought that it just looked really cool.
As time has gone on I’ve realized that one of the reasons I’m so drawn to submission is that I have to maintain such rigid control of my life out side of the bedroom.  I didn’t really have any where I could step down and follow instead of lead.

It’s a wonderful feeling to be able to let go and allow some one else to run the show. Flogging, blindfolds and handcuffs are all apart of it as well.  These BDSM tools allow me to give up control and just feel.  I’m sure there are those out there that don’t get it, but I’m equally sure there are those who know exactly what I’m talking about.

I’ve decided it’s time to go further in my BDSM education and will be doing some research about BDSM and will of course share with you what I learn.  For now I leave you with an image from my favorite BDSM site, The Training of O.

Image Courtesy of: The Training Of O

The last month or so has been pretty hellish for me so I’ve not been posting like I should have.  Recently I left my job due to “creative differences”.
Looking for a new job hasn’t been going very well since the economy is in the toilet which hasn’t been all that great for my mental state.  And a lame state of mind doesn’t really make for awesome sex encounters.  To top things off I had to have a tooth pulled last week and that was no pick-nick either let me tell you.
The dentist had to shoot me with 5 vials of the numbing agent in roughly twenty shots.  So when they finally were able to pull it I didn’t feel a thing.  I also didn’t feel a thing that night, the next day or the day after that.  In addition to all the wonderful new things I had to get used to with a missing tooth (it was a wisdom tooth) I’ve also started getting these horrid dizzy spells.  I’m still waiting for those to go away.

I know… excuses, excuses.

So any way last night I had a rather interesting encounter with Dom.  We went to bed rather late and he’s been a bit testy since he decided to quit smoking.  So we were playing around late last night and I started to tickle him for fun and that ended up triggering some real fun that I wasn’t expecting.
He grabbed my wrists and held me down while I struggled.  Since I was wearing a pair of boy short undies he was able to easily push them out of the way and have is way with me while we were both fully clothed.  Once he had his fun he reached over and grabbed the Hitachi magic wand and held it firmly against my clit.  Not matter how much I wiggled trying to get away he kept that thing right where he wanted it.  After a few minutes he decided it wasn’t getting the reaction he was hoping for so he switched it over to the high speed setting.  In seconds I was screaming and flopping around like an epileptic fish.  That has to be one of the most intense orgasms I’ve ever had.  He had put me in a position where I really couldn’t move using his whole body to hold me down while the wand was in play.  My wrists were held firmly against my stomach further restricting my movements.

I’ve been told not to make any plans for tonight as he already has plans for me.  I can’t wait to see what he has in mind tonight…

Image Courtesy of: Public Disgrace

Things have been pretty slow in the bedroom the last week or so.  Between my business and Dom’s work we are both just exhausted by the end of the night.  Lately there have been some sleeping in front of the tv episodes…
I’m really hoping things pick up the pace here in another couple of days.  I’m hopeful by then that my business will have settled back down and be running smoothly.
With Dom their billing cycle is out now so he should be getting a breather here in a few days.  Seems like with any business billing is a rough week to two weeks.  There are always people disputing their bill or saying they paid it.  This is hosting people, if you don’t pay your bill you lose your site.

Any way… I’ve been looking into some new collars since the one I have often rubs me the wrong way and I do mean the wrong way.  Last time I wore it for any length of time I ended up with a rather nasty abrasion on my neck and that was no good.   Dom was really unhappy over it, he doesn’t like any thing to leave marks that he didn’t put there himself.  I’m considering one of the more decrative styles collars that I could wear out of the house as a choker.

Any way… gotta jet since I still have a pile of work to do and it’s only getting bigger.  So I shall leave you with a pic that really made me sad over what I’ve been missing the last week.

Image Curtesy of: Sex and Submission

Maybe we just picked the wrong one for our first time out with this new site but I was a bit dissapointed in what the video had to offer.  First off there wasn’t enough bondage to keep me interested.  There was a lot of rope play, don’t get me wrong.  But it just wasn’t the same I guess.

So any way… the guy in this video was extremely memorable though!  I’m trying to find a picture with this guys dick in it so you can see how big his schlong happens to be.  That was almost worth the time to download right there.

Now I need to be be honest about a few things that you might like.
This flick was dominated by women.  And for the most part I mean that in every way you can imagine.  Two girls show up to be used and are greeted by another chick.  She strips them, orders them into a big garden tub to clean their nasty bodies then walks them into this room with a guy in a robe lounging in a chair.  Some flogging and a couple of crop spankings followed up by sex.  The domination was mostly done by the chick who greets the 2 girls.  There is some cool rope work towards the end though!  The girls were tied up together over the back of a couch.  That was to me the hottest part of the video because the girls were so obviously helpless.  That’s what a good submission session should be.

Image Curtesty of Sex and Submission

Well as it turns out the tv upstairs flaked out big time on us.  So much for watching the video we downloaded.  My partner and I were both pretty bummed as we were really looking forward to checking it out.

We got the tv fixed and are hoping that tonight we may have better luck though work seems to be really kicking both of our asses today.

But I promise as soon as we get a chance we are so going to be reviewing Sex and Submission and giving you our overall thoughts and feelings over what we see….

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